If your OCD is weirder than mine,I'll give you a medal, I've just been sitting here,For 40 minutes,Trying to explain to myself,Why I sent 2 too many messages, Quickly updating somebody,Who helped me today,Typing away on the keyboard,Too-long fingernails getting in the way, That new anxiety, distracting,Took away my focus,Reduced my inhibition, And what was … Continue reading OCD Competition
One more thought,Quickly, One little ritual,I'm often struggling with,Is comparing this mental state,To that, Checking,That when I do this,This mental habit,Is it really having that effect? If I am even thinking that,Then yes it is,As well as that background anxious state,Which is part of the cause, These repetitive thoughts,And odd behaviours,Are absolutely having that effect, … Continue reading OCD and Comparison
Before I move on,Let me do this one more time,To validate that time,I've just spent obsessing, If I don't do this one last time,... Oh yeah, remember the ERP,Damn this is hard, If I don't do this one last time ...I won't be able to properly begin,After that I'll be good,Otherwise the feeling of dread,Will … Continue reading One Last Ritual, ERP #6
I feel weird,Things have changed,Very quickly, Most of that,Was down to me,And my over-reactions, Understandable to an extent,But other parts not so, I've had little control over myself,Especially in bad moments,But in the calmness of the aftermath,That's when you have a choice, A choice to do the thing that's best,Even if a part of you … Continue reading Calm
I’m in the midst of it,It takes so much courage,To fight rituals and ruminating,No matter what, Medication is helping,If I will let it,I can do it,It’s all that matters.
I met a homeless man,On Friday,At the hospital, A homeless man using a wheelchair,He was using the lobby for shelter,And I'm glad they let him stay there, He could tell from my piano-playing,That I was hurting,That I was in need of reconnection,Reconnection to myself, And I don't doubt him,Because I know what he means,He understood … Continue reading A Message From a Homeless Man
Human love,Isn't enough anymore,And I don't know why, There are so many complications to life,That we are losing our humanity,We really are, All I want to do,Is dedicate my life to helping people,That's all I've ever really wanted to do, But I just can't get there,I can't get back, My life has been on hold,For … Continue reading I Need Love